Tolerance value

"I believe i have the quality that you are after. It is because I put my heart into everything that i do, i dont do things just cause someone told me to. I do things in context. And if i believe something is not right, i have to ask and justify it, at least for the sake of myself."

That is one of the answer that I'd give to anyone who interview me.
I proud myself for not being a "Yes Sir, Yes Sir" person, and i know no one should.
But trust me, reality is never going to be perfect. And it frustrate me over time.

New job been awesome so far.
Even though i havent found myself as comfortable as how i used to be in my old job, it can only get better from time to time.
My manager and team mate has been quite helpful and friendly to me. They both married, and their main goal in life atm is to get a new house for the family.
The rest of the team are all men, except one lady, that is now on leave for 3 weeks for a wedding.
Practically, am the only girl in the team. Not to mention the only not-married one, and under 25YO one.
Ok, i dont want to complain, but i couldnt help it to always point this out, cause i feel out of the loop when it comes to day to day conversation with any of them

More towards the job itself.
I found myself so far feeling overwhelmed with the fact that everthing is so different here at AGL.
Yes, i know, just like relationship, one should never compare current with old one.
But really? seriously? Who wouldnt?
First, so far i only got one screen, and its 17" squarish one (i just applied for an extra monitor tho).
Second, i need to learn so many small little different things from writing SQL in Oracle to SQL Server now. Which is fine, but sometimes can be annoying.
Third, network is quite slow in the office.
Forth, am still under the shadow sometimes that i feel scared that i cant perform the job well enough
HELP!!

I havent been doing much of data mining in terms of building any models, but i start to get my hand on it looking at previous model just yesterday.
I hope hope hope hope, fingers crossed, everything goes well, and i can fulfill what's expected of me, and beyond.
I hope hope hope hope, no bad things happening to me, like AGL decided to cut back on resources or stuff.
Geez, working in a big company is quite scary, despite the fact that its big ofcourse. And yes, those benefits that i can get haha..

Anw, thanks again Mom and G for being my solid rock through this transition time in my life.

Oh and..
"Cause if i go against my believe, i got nothing left in my life.."
How far would someone goes beyond his tolerance value?

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